Where to begin?

I'm sitting at the keyboard that has a sticky spacebar just cringing at the thought of how long it has been since my last post. Sure, I've thought of oodles of posts, but always at the times when I am not at a computer with access. Usually, it's at work when I am not able to post or view blogs or surf the net or talk on the phone or do anything fun. I actually have to work now. Ugh.

I'm finally out of the freaking float pool at work. No more filling in for other people. No more bitchy boss. No more BS about being denied days off. No more feeling like pond scum. I have my own desk back, my own phone with my own voicemail, my own place to put my own stuff. I have pictures of the kids all over my cube and I blew up a few cool ones from our trip to China. I am fitting into the new group and trying my hardest to settle into a routine where everything is recorded, your every task timed and your productivity measured. But, it could be worse. I could have no job at all and be without insurance. And, since I carry the insurance, that would be devastating to our family.

It's funny when you are in your 20s and just starting out in the career world what you say you will and won't do in your job. "I will never stay in a job that I hate. I will never work at a job just for the benefits. I want to be happy and useful in my job." And then reality sets in. You get a life-changing debilitating disease (or two), your husband's insurance refuses to cover the medicine both you and your son need and suddenly, you are stuck at a job that you hate because the benefits are too good to leave. Again, it could be worse. I know. I've got 7 1/2 years with the company and while that doesn't seem very long, to me it's long enough that I don't want to start over somewhere else. I just wish I could do a job that I loved instead of one I hated. The dept. I moved into is high stress, but the people joke around to alleviate that stress and I like that. No one is uptight. There is tons of work to keep you busy so the clock flies. I like that. We all get to chat back and forth all day long and it helps. It helps to just be part of a dept. and be included in things. That makes me feel much better about working at my company.

I write part-time for our community newspaper and I love it. It definitely helps to be able to write again and be out in the community. There are new owners and I hope that means positive changes are in store. It definitely needs it and there will be an uphill battle for awhile. I hope that I can continue writing for this paper. It's where my heart is.

This stupid spacebar is driving me nuts. I'm off for now. Maybe I could discover another keyboard in the depths of the computer parts storage closet.

I promise to blog more. I need more feedback on some upcoming posts. Stay tuned.